Doubts and anxiety will really get in the way...

...ONLY IF WE ALLOW THEM TO!

I want to be honest with you; I almost talked myself out of writing this next post. I had to force myself to sit and write it about two weeks ago! Mhm, I never shared a thing. I started to think to myself, "What if its not as good as the first one? -- Do you think people really care? Girl, no one wants to hear what you experience in your daily life.” All these thoughts distracted me! Overall, I began to feel this pressure of being on time, being the most incredible writer in the world, always being on point and consistent with my posts, but that isn't always my real life. Shit happens. I had to stop like girl, you did the first one be proud. I also had to tell myself, make sure you're doing this for you and keeping it authentic. If it wasn't for my sister in Christ and creativity, I would have spent the rest of the day I started this just SLEEPING. I had to text her like, “I'm experiencing the worst anxiety about getting my next post out, help.” Jerrian Sari immediately called me, calmly reminding me of my why and suggested that I press through + do what I can. Shortly after, I found myself doing. I was exhausted but I chose to go into a coffee shop and refocus. THREE THINGS WERE SO IMPORTANT the day I wrote this.

1. I was honest that I was experiencing doubts and my anxiety was on a hundred. 

2. I reached out to my accountability sister and was reminded I would be okay. 

3. I CHOSE to move past what I was experiencing. The whole point of this is to get through mental blocks and obstacles. 

It sounds so easy, but it takes accountability, understanding my purpose and why I'm doing this to move forward. Instead of becoming paralyzed or withdraw, I started to act on purpose. I didn't take any of my excuses because I know I want to be better. I share all this to say it can be a regular day, I don't have to be in a bad mood or things can be smooth but those annoying doubts from my old mindset pop up trying to play me. If I say I'm going to free myself from myself and live my best creative life, I have to stick to it. I'm so thankful I don't have to do this alone. A lot of you who read my very first post, left such positive comments and told me personally how moved you were by my words. I truly appreciate you all for your time and feedback. My prayer for you is that you have people around that will help propel you forward, you will have the courage to press through no matter what, and are confident in your ability. I'm a living testimony of someone healing daily and making sure I listen to what God has called me to. 

With mad love and mental clarity, 

Fe