I'M BACK, BUT I NEVER REALLY LEFT.
YO! It's me again. The young blogger who wanted to be consistent with this site, but life happened. I'm not even mad though. Welcome to I'm back, but I never left. Y'all I realized something fire, while in transition, working a 9-5, in my solitude/isolation and even while experiencing frustration/anger. Stick with me as I share my growth and evolution.
I'm an artist and I'm sensitive about my...I'm a creative soul and I'm preserving my i$h.
I haven't been as consistent with my blog, but I have been consistent and never stopped listening to God + trying to listen to what my body needs. There hasn't been posts, but the creativity NEVER stopped. I did not stop listening to what my soul and what my super tired spirit needed. Lately, I've needed sleep, but haven't been able to rest. There's a difference! Sleep and rest need each other fam. Pouring out, working and serving in ways that come from a usually well rested place is goals right now. I've noticed that all I want is to be in the moment and create as I go. Most of that happens when I'm alone. I miss the part of doing to be one with self, reconnecting with my creativity and simply taking time to refill. I'm sensitive about my art, my words and at some point I have to know when to slow...down to continue staying true. Slowing down doesn't mean you're stopping. It doesn't mean you suck or whatever else the world tries to tell you; it shows maturity. The fact that you know when you need to recharge + refuel is POPPIN y'all.
"You'll always stay authentic + true." - @JerrianSari
Don't feel bad for slowing down. Have people around you that remind you're okay for making an important decision for yourself. My mental, physical and spiritual health are a priority. You'll always stay true. When you take a break or are experiencing some challenging things in your life, you'll still be authentic. You can still be creative. I have a lot on my plate, but I asked for this. In all that I've asked for, there was also the prayer to be able to manage it all too. Do you make sure you're operating out of a cheerful place? I'm not always cheerful fam and I haven't been. Don't get me wrong. I'm thankful, grateful, I still have peace but when your sleep is interrupted, you barely get alone time + you haven't rested or slept a full night...BOY will you get a musty brain. Your best work won't come from there. Your best self will be ya gangsta, hard to work with, eye rollin self. Sleep and having a restful mind/spirit is key. I'm GUILTY though! I wasn't doing much preserving of my energy, I just kept going and pouring. I'm trying to refocus now.
"My energy is not different, I just preserve it this time." - @FeliciteCesaire
My mother stays dropping bombs, gems, so many truths when I express myself to her. It amazes me and I'm so thankful I can be honest in my walk with a woman so wise. I said to her the other day, "Mom, I'm tired. Should I be feeling bad for that?" Her response was simple, "When I'm tired, I stop. I don't feel guilty about it." GASPS! I was driving to work and it was like "do you understand the words that are coming out of my mommas's mouth?!" I needed to hear my first example share that with me. I needed that reminder. Shoot, in 2018 when everyone is showing their glow, It's okay to slow down to maintain/preserve yours! Sigh. Yeah. I'm on that.
I share this whole thing to finish how I started...I'm back, but I NEVER left. My creativity doesn't stop when I take a break, it INCREASES! Comment below I want to hear your thoughts!
Still tired but coming from an honest place,
Fe
TWEET!
"You'll always stay authentic + true." - @JerrianSariTHIS RIGHT HERE!
"When I'm tired, I stop. I don't feel guilty about it." MomTHIS IS TWEETABLE!
"My energy is not different, I just preserve it this time." - @FeliciteCesaireYASSSSS!
My creativity didn't stop when I took a break, it increased!